Distant Longings

Following is a series of poems written over a time with hopes and memories heart-held for a reason could not be resisted but would hopefully be achieved.

 

Week #1: Collision

A collision of hearts

Of two a far

Not without a scar

But with a hope

 

Week #2: Primacy

Fertilized Happiness

Through Providence

Becoming Precedence

Overtaken Decadence

 

Week #3: Moments

Treasured each moment

Living every second

Yet a space adjacent

Still hopes Iridescent 

 

Week #4: Glimpses

When words would not speak

But deeper will a glimpse yet meek

A treasure that I desperately seek

Whispering my love with every peek

 

Week #5: Memories

A portion of bliss

So would reminisce

Memories that would dehisce

With each sight to be precise

 

Week #6: Acclimation

Memories of fractions

Reminders for satisfaction

Thoughts without a cessation

Each day an acclimation

 

Week #7: Perforce

Perforce, the things seen

Coarse, the life seems

Remorse, the heart filled with

Endorse, to be longing

 

Week #8: Abeyance

Depiction for vehemence

Being to thirst an abeyance

Parts of self being a conveyance

Patience screaming through silence

 

Week #10: Dawn

Shriveling fantasies

Longing for dew

Waiting a cloud to pass

Hoping to see the dawn

 

Week #11: Enchanted

What makes her special

To seem like an angel

Capturing every moment

A loner captured in an enchantment

 

Week #13: Gap

What makes her special

To seem like an angel

Capturing every moment

A loner captured in an enchantment

Script

It was then when the devil was sent to abyss for eternity while Gods ascended to heavens with the chosen few left out of creation.
The Gods always win as there’s no competitor he’s made beyond him. Still it was such a loss to see his creation turned desperately away from him breaking him to see that the creation itself has turned against the creator.
All the elites, prophets did their parts as scripted. He who created already knew how it would take place at the glimpse of the completion of the creation but perhaps was curious to see how it would be.
It started with one seed and grew up to be the biggest of all and stretched its arms with various fruits bearing seeds which would grow out to be just like it, filling the voids.
There’s been rumors, legends, tales or religions as some used to call tried to tell the story but nothing was able to reach the fullness of it as it was too much to bear and decode.
The code was given along hidden in letters of a sacred language but being too vast to extract for it contained the universe inside for the one who made it is the fullness and through everything came to be.
Some of them used to say there were people out the sky who were wiser than them. Some called them Gods. Some said they were living in a script put on them. Certainly everyone was under one.
There were more before it.
They used to call them civilizations. And that they weren’t the first. First were the deities for the next. Making us not the second. It always the first used to be higher and wiser than the second. Making us not higher than them. But second always traveled an extra mile.
So the remaining needed somewhere to stay where been prepared from the beginning. New Jerusalem they called it. Another story was over and it was time to tell a new one. Back to the loop.
It is inevitable that their free will would repeatedly be gone to taste the forbidden fruit once again. But each time wasn’t like the previous. It never was the same and never were few.
First was there with their semi-divinity having union with higher beings which enabled them to build the wonders. Yet trying to ascend where they dare not to thus brought their downfall. A tower they tried to build to reach the sky people. Yet by a flood they sunk leaving all their might behind.
As everything came to be out of one place it would lead to fullness if all the fractions were to combine. So the creator worried. One word, one mind, one race. Impossible would be none. Thus were them scattered. Divided. Categorized. Impossible to unite.
It was expected that the left few would lead to a life in accordance with the creator. Still it did not take long for them to be the same as their predecessors. In fact it was worse. Actually they were the worst, yet.
A veil of blindness, was laid on them. Blinded and bound to a common lie.
As the tale goes leaving behind a question where this tale would lead us.
Is there anything of which one can say, “Look! This is something new”? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time.
No one remembers the former generations, and even those yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow them.
Ecclesiastes 1:10-11

Love

I asked it myself, what is love? The definition for love is relative, varies from person to person.
For a kid love would be receiving an ice cream from his father. For lonely a hug would be love. It differs. Therefore you cannot give an exact definition for love.
For me however it seems to be;
You’re unprepared but you’re willing to give up yourself for the sake of someone else. Unconsciously making efforts to make someone else smile sometimes even sacrificing yours. Simply you’re committing yourself for someone else.
You find pleasure in seeing someone else happy. You treasure an instance of seeing that person than a whole year full of laughter. You rearrange your priority list, top to bottom. Having a constant #1.
Well you’re simply dreaming your days off. Take every second to dream how all the possibilities you could have with another significant person. And you find pleasure in that than going out for a beer with friends. Well simply those aren’t your priorities anymore. You simply go to sleep just to dream.
Without even realizing you’re making efforts to make a man out of you. A man who would be ideal. Who would be the best. Only for the person who’s best to you. Why I used “only” because everything else is, just not the priority.
I never believed in love or it’s ability to change a person. I always thought the change comes from within that changing the consciousness or reprogramming brain is being changed but now it made me admit that love does change a person.
For love comes from within. That’s the nature of who we are. How we’re created in the first place.
So God created man in His own image
Genesis 1:27
God made man in his own nature and God is love.
And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in God,and God in them.
1 John 4:16
He gave is own self for the sake of his creation.
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 3:16
Well we got nothing compared to the love that God has. For it is agape. But created in his self we all share fractions of his nature in love. Which we should share with each other for we’re all fractions of God. Not just humans but everything surrounding us. For everything came to be with God out of nothingness.
For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things been created through him and for him.
Colossians 1:16
Wisdom is that God is universe. Reference is this very writing. I needed an inspiration to write again. I fell in love recently so took it as the inspiration and where did I end up. Makes me wonder.

I have been in love before, and I knew that love was more than just holding hands.

The Beatles

You

Let me start by asking who are you? What would you use to define who you are. To define yourself. Will it be your name, age or where you from or your possessions or occupation. Do all those taken together makes you. Would you rather be yourself or let those said things define who you are. Are you those or are you You? A question to be asked yourself.
Let’s assume that all those were taken away from you. Even your body part by part was separated from you. What would you be after all that. You’d still be you. Therefore the fact is that you’re none of the material and physical things you thought to be. When everything is taken away from you what will be left. When there’s absolute nothing to you you’d still be thinking “so what’s next?”. Who’s the one thinking that? isn’t it still you there existing in the nothingness. Forget everything which can be determined by your senses and you’d be on the first step of rediscovering who you are. Rather than trying to expand your horizons to gain what lies in mirages dig inwards to seek yourself. For real treasures lies within.
Name, age, nationality, religion all those were labels given to us when we came to be a human. That’s the reason for us to understand that fact that we are a being when all the humanity was taken away from us. Your titles they’re irrelevant.
What will be your limitations, your scale. Being a human it’ll be as far as you can reach with your arms or the distance you can travel but the real scale lies within. What’s the scale of your mind. As a human you may be limited to certain measurements but as a being you’re limitless. As you begin to understand yourself you begin to realize you’re infinite. There’s no measurement invented to limit your mind. No centimeters nor kilograms nor molecules can determine your mind. That’s who you really are. A being created miraculously in a infinite space. Within you lies the universe.

As above, so below

– The Zohar –

Requirement

In a world governed by social rules and regulation; aren’t you compelled to live up to expectations?

I can tell you for certain that it is not a requirement. You are not supposed to live up to anyone’s expectations or live a life style to please others.

Why live a life trying to satisfy someone else while you gain nothing at all?

This life that you have been born to belongs to YOU and you alone.

Let me ask you a question now.

What is life, truly? Is it one which is filtered and altered to fit into a perfect specific shape moulded by the elites or is it something that is filtered and altered to fit into our materialistic illusions?

When all mental energy is centralized, in that moment, life will reveal its truest form to anyone who is willing to wander out and seek it. This energy has been within us from the start, only if you search deep inside will you be able to unmask the shrouded veil cast over “reality”.

But that is not where we belong. This life we have received is truly a blessing. We’ve been blessed with this amazing mind that allows man to do many things. So why should we be limited to the basic structure laid in front of us, when given the full privilege to make our own choices.

It’s time for us to wake up. To stop trying to fulfil other’s expectations and to start seeking who we are. Who we really are. And to reach out of this veil laid on us. To reach out though first need to reach deep. To dis-attach from this Materialized Illusion we’ve been trapped in.

Honestly The Truth Is…

This world isn’t all what it seems, as a kid I never consider money as an important roll of the society, actually I had no need for money at all. As I grew up I slowly slipped into the rabbit hole like everybody else. Once I realize the concept of money, I wanted more and more of it. It was so easy at the first making money but eventually it became such a drag.

Once you caught up with money it’s never enough. A month went by, 6 months went by then a whole year went by and I was so fed up at work. I felt like I had lost my joy in life. So I got to think. After days of thinking I came to a conclusion that money is everything and that’s ridiculous well it’s not that ridiculous back then but now I think about it, I feel bad for most people who’re still think money is everything. You might think that I’m criticizing society but take a closer look at the society we are live in.

We are live in a society where people’s life valued by money. And your good deeds valued by how much you spend on it, that’s why most wealthy people spend millions of dollars on charities. If you are wealthy according to society’s standards, you are a respected person in the society but if you’re poor, either you’re a drug head or a bum. That’s how society’s scale made of, and they’re still talking about humanity like it’s still applicable.

Take love for an example, my opinion about love is it’s a very strong feeling even scientists can’t explain how or why our lives build around it. Even when our love ones gone we can still feel the love for them very strongly. Now take a look at 21st century love there’s nothing wrong with it but it has become an amusing materialistic concept. I’m not saying love is this, love is that I’m simply telling you that it’s not even close to what love truly represents.

Nowadays the younger generation constantly put money first before everything else. It’s good to have such a compelling goal like money but you need to have a good understanding about this materialistic world and how you gonna live in it. And sadly most of the marriages are based on money too, people tend to attract to wealth than the person.

You need to understand that money isn’t some natural element of the nature, it made by humans therefore it’s a material. There’s no rule or even written anywhere that you have to have money. What you can do is don’t pay much attention to it, just let it be as it is, and most importantly remember that we are all the same, these materialistic things and concepts are the illusions that separate us from each other.

Earn love, spend love, love yourself, educate yourself, try to have more optimistic view on the society, be open-minded, chase the truth rather than chasing illusions. Don’t try so hard to live an illusion that put inside your head by this materialistic world unless you want to be a robot.

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

– John Lennon –

Allan Watts On Love.

Well now really when we go back into falling in love. And say, it’s crazy. Falling. You see? We don’t say “rising into love”. There is in it, the idea of the fall. And it goes back, as a matter of fact, to extremely fundamental things. That there is always a curious tie at some point between the fall and the creation. Taking this ghastly risk is the condition of there being life. You see, for all life is an act of faith and an act of gamble. The moment you take a step, you do so on an act of faith because you don’t really know that the floor’s not going to give under your feet. The moment you take a journey, what an act of faith. The moment that you enter into any kind of human undertaking in relationship, what an act of faith. See, you’ve given yourself up. But this is the most powerful thing that can be done: surrender. See. And love is an act of surrender to another person. Total abandonment. I give myself to you. Take me. Do anything you like with me. See. So, that’s quite mad because you see, it’s letting things get out of control. All sensible people keep things in control. Watch it, watch it, watch it. Security? Vigilance Watch it. Police? Watch it. Guards? Watch it. Who’s going to watch the guards? So, actually, therefore, the course of wisdom, what is really sensible, is to let go, is to commit oneself, to give oneself up and that’s quite mad. So we come to the strange conclusion that in madness lies sanity.

The Past, The Present And The Future.

“What have I done?, what am I going to do?”, these are the questions that bothered me a lot throughout my early teenage years, I was always afraid about my future and regret about my past. I was seeking for an answer so long then suddenly I got to read about these great philosophers like Alan Watts, Carl Jung etc.

As I dive in deep of their philosophies, I reckon that they all talk about The Present very often. So I did my own research and it all started to make sense. The Past which we can’t control or visit as 3 dimensional beings, but we spend a great amount of time dwelling on The Past but where we do that? yes, you said it, in The Present.

Let’s say you have an exam tomorrow and you spend all day stressing out about it, but is it really necessary? I don’t think so. That’s why The Present is so important. Whatever you do in The Present is the only thing that matters and the only thing that gonna defines your future and past. As you look at The Future and The Past you can see they are both interconnected with The Present so without The Present both future and past can’t exist. Do what you got to do right now, not tomorrow not next week or you’ll spend your whole life thinking and deciding what you gonna do with your life. Trust me it’s one of the worst ways to live a life.

Live your life as there wasn’t any beginning and as there isn’t gonna be any destination, it’s an illusion of time to keep us in the loop. Be one with the nature, be one with the universe or be trap in the materialistic world. You are everything and everything is you, don’t let so called “Society” tell you otherwise.

“I have realized that the past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is.”

– Alan Watts –

The Garden

Hidden among the stories of walls

An eye that sees all

A truth to be told

A riddle to be solved

Which none knows

Kept aside by all

Despite all the false

Stories they have told

It lies behind the shores

Of Noah’s songs

Hidden from all

Sinful souls

When the end draws

As its Creator calls

Will reign for devoted souls

With the tree which bears hope

As it is foretold

Reality?

What is reality?
Growing up I’ve often heard the words “be realistic”.
But, what is this reality you speak of ? is it all the materialistic things we sense around us?
Is this the true depth of reality?
If so, who created this reality?
It is You.
You make your own reality. What you believe to be real, you eventually make a part of your reality.

The real world lies beyond this physical reality, covered from a Materialized illusion in which you believe in.
How can such a thing so real become an illusion?
Should you believe in all things to be real just because someone told you so?
You’ve been flocked together. Labelled and brain washed by the elites that sit above you making you believe in the lies they spin.
We are all in a system. With or Without your knowledge you belong to it. Rules and Regulations that apply to how you eat , how you sleep. However much we try to deny this fact it is as old as time. It has been engraved into stone by you and your ancestors.